Never Had a Dream Come true

"Never Had A Dream Come True"
S Club 7

~"Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind"


Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you

Thank you, Father :)

Kemaren, waktu gw lagi ngerjain tugas buat renungan harian, gw ngebuka kitab suci dengan asal. Halaman yang gw buka itu kalau nggak salah Sirakh:11 gw lupa ayat berapa yang jelas ada kata 'Anakku' di sana. Terus, gw tiba - tiba ngerasa pengen nangis, aneh kan? =="

Then, gw mutusin buat berlutut 'n berdoa di depan salib di ruang tamu. Gw ceritain semuanya sama 'Dia' semua rasa stress, frustasi,kebingungan gw..semuanya. Suatu hal yang sangat aneh, karena gw itu jarang bisa doa sepanjang itu. Dan setelah selesai...gw merasa lebih lega 'n gw ngerasa nggak sendirian lagi.

Lalu, pagi ini gw bangun 'n gw dapet surprise! beberapa pertanyaan yang kemaren gw tanyain dalam doa gw terjawab. Sekarang, gw makin percaya kalo 'Papa' gw itu bener - bener ada 'n selalu merhatiin gw. Thank You, Father :)

Mood : Neutral, Peace
Song(s) : ~Dia Mengerti-Delon
~ Mukzizat itu nyata
~ Tuhan Pasti Sanggup
Quote :

Tuhan Pasti Sanggup…
TanganNya takkan terlambat ‘tuk mengangkatmu
Tuhan Masih Sanggup…
Percayalah, Dia tak tinggalkanmu…

`......`

Gw stress hari ini. nggak tau kenapa tiba - tiba kepikiran masalah - masalah yang selama ini selalu gw abaikan. Hari ini gw ngobrol sama salah satu 'kakak' gw tentang gw-tau-siapa, lalu 'kakak' gw bilang ge nggak boleh kayak gini terus, karena ada kemungkinan suatu saat nanti gw bakal 'meledak'. Believe me, I want to explode NOW..

Gw lelah mikirin semua masalah ini, nyoba nyari jalan keluar sama aja nyoba membetulkan benang kusut. Gw nggak tahu kapan dan darimana semua ini bermula, dan gw nggak tau kapan akan berakhir. Lalu..tiba - tiba aja gw udah nggak mengenal siapa diri gw lagi, gw nggak tahu harus gimana, nggak tau gimana cara ngejelasin situasi gw sama orang lain.

Ada 6 miliar manusia di bumi ini, tapi kenapa gw ngerasa kalau gw itu sendirian? I feel so alone, numb, left behind. Semua perasaan yang gw alami 'masa itu' terasa lagi..yang paling parah gw merasa perlu melakukan kebiasaan buruk itu lagi. Padahal udah sekian lama gw bisa berhenti ngelakuin itu. God -_____-

Gw berharap gw itu orang lain, atau malah gw nggak pernah ada sebelumnya. Terdengar cengeng n egois?gw tau..tapi itu yg gw rasain sekarang. Ge berharap bisa menghilang gitu aja dari sini, atau mungkin tiba - tiba gw kena amnesia 'n ingatan itu nggak akan balik lagi selamanya. Gw gtw...
Gw cuma mau semua perasaan ini berakhir, gw mau masalah - masalah ini selesai, walaupun sepertinya itu nggak mungkin.

Mood : Sad, Angry, Confuse, Crazy
Song : Crash and Burn-Darren Hayes
Quotes:

I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Crash and Burn

"Crash And Burn"
Darren Hayes

"If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone"

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Iseng - Iseng sembari menunggu hujan berhenti :D

What scares you the most and why?
~> High, I don’t know why...It just scares me >.<

What do you do in your free time?
~> Read a good fanfic, wacth fanvid in youtube, browsing,play games, watch a good movie, sleeping -.-zZzz

Do you like chocolate?
~> I LOVE chocolate XD

Do you like rainy days or snowy winter days more?
~> There’s no snow in Indonesia, so I like rainy days more :D

Name 3 things in nature you find most beautiful?
~> Snow, Dew :3

Which is your favorite part of the human face and why?
~> Eyes, because Eyes is the window to the soul, rite? :D

Which is your favorite body part of the human body and why?
~> Lips..I don’t have a reason =P

What makes you bored?
~> Many Things

Which is your favorite four legged creature and why?
~> Bunny ~XD the cutest animal on earth X3

Do you like spicy food and why?
~> No..i dun like it. ‘Cause it feel like my tounge is burning everytime i eat spicy food DX
Do you remember your favorite teacher?
~> Yes..My ‘Papih’ at school X)

Which are your 2 favorite careers and why?
~> Psychiatrist, ‘Cause Human’s emotion is interesting for me :D
~> Neuro Surgeon, Don’t know why..Just love that Profession
Which is the hardest thing you ever had to do?
~> Err—it’s a hard question to answer, really..

When was the last time you lied and to whom and why?
~> Why would I remember that?beside I don’t like lying to people :)

Tell me about something you really regret?
~> Let’s see.. When I stopped EF at seventh grade.
Tell me about a mistake you made?
~> Well..I’ve made a lot of mistakes, I can’t write it one by one :|

Tell me about someone in your family?
~> He’s my closest brother, since i was a little he always protect me and take care of me when my parents not home. He isa very good big brother X)

Tell me about your favorite book, magazine or comic?
~> My favourite comic is death note, the story and the characters is very interesting

Tell me about someone you envy?
~> I try to be grateful for everyhing my Lord gave me. I dun envy anyone :)
Tell me about something you've achieved?