What Hurt the Most- Rascal Flatts

Ini lagu yang akhir - akhir ini SANGAT sering saia dengerin dan nggak pernah gagal merubah saia langsung jadi "mellow mode"
Enjoy~ :)

"What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away"

What Hurt the Most- Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

And Here I Am..

Happy birthday to my self and to my OC LIzzie today! :)
Last night I was laying in my bedroom, wating for a birthday message from my friends..I felt stupid, but I did it anyway..When I thought no one will stay wake just to send me a message to me I decided to sleep and I was checking my phone for the last time, anddd...there was a message from my friend~! I felt like my heart wants to jump xD

A moment before I fell asleep, I said "Dear God, This year I just want me and the people I love to be happy" Yeah, the same wish as last year's wish. But deep Inside I wish for something else, a stupid simple wish.. "I want a simple 'Happy Birthday' from Him" a stupid wish, I know.

But, Here I am, sitting in front of my computer, waiting for a simple "Happy Birthday" from him, feeling stupid, but..I keep wishing anyway. I hope I can write something in this blog again next year. :)

Mood today: Neutral, happy
Song: My wish-Rascall Flats

I Gues That was Our 'Goodbye'

I met him, rasanya seperti de ja vu saja tadi..gw berhenti melangkah begitu ngeliat 'dia', dunia gw rasanya berhenti berputar dan gw lupa bernapas. Persis seperti pertemuan gw n Dia 4 tahun yang lalu, hmm..nggak kerasa udah setahun gw nggak ngeliat 'dia', dan jujur gw kaget ngeliat perubahannya sekarang. Dia terlihat begitu..berbeda?

Rasanya lucu juga kalau mengingat tempat kami bertemu untuk yang terakhir -setidaknya gw berpikir ini adalah yang terakhir- dan tempat kami pertemu untuk pertama kal itu mirip. Gw inget beberapa bulan lalu saat gw lagi dalam perjalanan pulang sekolah gw berpikir dan bilang 'God, gw mau ketemu dia..satu kali lagi aja..satu kali sebelum gw mati nanti. Gw mau ketemu dia, biarpun hanya berpapasan..asal gw bisa liat dia dan tahu kalau He's okay.'

Dan well, di malam natal ini gw ketemu dia..gw nggak percaya itu kebetulan..mungkin Tuhan udah berencana ngabulin doa gw di malam natal ini?Gw nggak tahu..yang jelas gw berterimakasih sama Tuhan buat pertemuan singkat itu.

Ketika gw tahu kalau dia akan pergi lagi hal yang paling gw inginkan saat itu cuma meluk dia dan mengatakan sesuatu yang nggak pernah gw katakan sebelumnya karena gw terlalu pengecut. But I didn't do that..gw cuma ngeliatin dia yang mulai menghilang diantara kerumunan orang sambil berkata 'Take Care' dalam hati yang sangat tidak mungkin bagi dia untuk mendengarnya, dan gw membiarkan dunia gw serasa runtuh dan hati gw menangis ngeliat dia yang pergi begitu aja nangisin kebodohan gw nangisin kepengecutan gw. Gw bodoh, Gw tau suatu saat gw akan sangat menyesal udah menyia - nyiakan kesempatan ini..It's painful to watch you leaving again, But I'm glad I met you today..

"Hey, I Love You, okay?Please take care, merry christmas dear..God Bless you. Goodbye :')"

Mood: Mellow, Sad
Soundtrack: Cinta dalam hati-Ungu
Please forgive me-Firehouse
Difference in me- Westlife



"There's something in the silence
I never used to feel
There's something about knowing
That tells you this is real
When you're close
all I know I don't want to let you go"
Difference In Me-Westlife

Muse-Undisclosed Desire

"I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
"

I know you suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied

Soothe me
I'll make you feel pure
Trust me
You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

You trick your lovers that you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine

Please me
Show me how it's done
Tease me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Please me
Show me how it's done
Trust me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

4 Jenis dissociative disorder

1. dissociative amnesia
2. dissociative fugue
3. depersonalization disorder
4. dissociative identity disorder (DID) <--- dulu istilah yang dipake adalah multiple personality disorder (MPD), tapi sekarang udah diganti ke DID

karakteristik secara umum untuk semua penyakit ini adalah : 'perubahan' identitas seseorang, memori, ataupun kesadaran. orang yang menderita penyakit2 ini ngga bisa mengingat kejadian2 penting atau mungkin lupa identitas diri sementara, atau malah 'membuat' identitas baru.

untuk jenis pertama, orang yang menderita dissociative amnesia tidak bisa mengingat informasi tentang dirinya sendiri, biasanya terjadi setelah mengalami kejadian yang stressful. walau informasi itu bukannya hilang sama skali, tapi dia tidak bisa mengingatnya pada saat lagi amnesia. note: ini tidak sama dengan masalah 'pelupa' yang biasa dialami orang2. penderita biasa tidak mengenali keluarga maupun temen, tapi masih mempunyai kemampuan berbicara, membaca, maupun kemampuan2 lain dulunya. amnesia ini bisa berlangsung selama beberapa jam sampe beberapa tahun.

kedua, dissociative fugue, penyakit 'lupa' yang lebih parah dari dissociative amnesia. penderita bukan hanya menjadi amnesia, tapi juga tiba2 meninggalkan rumah maupun pekerjaannya, dan kemudian 'membentuk' identitas baru. orang ini bisa aja mengambil nama baru, rumah baru, pekerjaan baru, bahkan kepribadian baru. penyakit ini biasanya terjadi setelah orang itu mengalami tekanan yang hebat, misalnya pertengkaran keluarga, kesulitan dalam pekerjaan, peperangan, atau musibah alam. biasanya penyakit ini bisa sembuh total, dan waktu penyembuhannya bisa sangat bervariasi. dan setelah sembuh, orang ini tidak ingat apa yang terjadi selama dia mengalami fugue

ketiga, depersonalization disorder, di mana penderita 'mengubah' pandangan maupun pengalaman dirinya. jenis penyakit ini agak lain dengan penyakit dissociative yang lainnya, karena depersonalization tidak mengalami gangguan dengan ingatan. biasa penyebabnya adalah stress, dan penderita bisa tiba2 kehilangan kepribadiannya. mereka merasa seperti berada di luar badan, dan seakan2 memperhatikan diri mereka sendiri dari jauh. mereka bergerak seakan2 hilang kesadaran dengan realitas. gejala yang sama juga kadang terjadi di beberapa penyakit lain, seperti schizophrenia, panic attacks, posttraumatic stress disorder, maupun borderline personality disorder. penyakit ini biasanya bermula dari saat remaja, dan berlansung cukup lama. penyakit ini juga cukup sering terjadi bersamaan dengan disorder lainnya.
kadang kala kita memang merasa seperti bukan menjadi diri sendiri, tapi hal ini adalah normal dan bukan brarti menderita multiple personality.

diambil dari http://forum.megaxus.com/index.php?topic=17169.0

Rambling 'Bout SPN Season 6

huff... I dun know where to start.. *deep breath*

When I heard that Mr. Kripke will make this season i was sooo excited. 'Cause Honestly I dun like the season 5 ending. (Dean and Lisa?just..what.the.hell ==")When the first time I saw the season 6 trailer well, my heart broke for Dean, He's not happy with Lisa and it's written all over his face.

Well, I haven't watch this season, I know every detail of this season from the spoilers on internet. And honestly, I dissapointed >~<

First, Samuel Campbell is back from the dead, my first thought is..what?! Why him?! why not John or Mary?!

Second, Robo-Sam? God! Don't let me start =="

Third, Crowley is like..what?the new Hell's President?come on..he's one of my favourite Character DX

Fourth ( I'm not sure if this true or not) dean is still with Lisa Dx I don't like her..she's like a mary-sue..and I believe Dean doesn't love her, he won't stay with her if it's not because of Sam. (I hate you sam for this, really! *pout*)

The last one ( this makes me angry, really)...My cute-innocent-blue-eyed-Angel a.k.a Castiel's first kiss is a DEMON?! More spesific that demon is MEG, the demon who killed Jo and Ellen Harvelle.. Just, what.the.hell?!Castiel will never ever kiss a demon!He hates them and he's an ANGEL, hello?! Mr.Kripke what were you THINKING?!

i don't understand what is the purpose of this season, robo-sam, sad!Dean, Cas kissed a Demon, bad!Crowley, Granpa Campbell back from the dead, seriously?what's next? bzz...

Do not make me more disappointed Uncle Kripke, I know you can think of something MUCH better than THAT! :|

Holiday?

Besok libuur..yaa~ay! XD

Saat yang udah gw tunggu sejak lama akhirnya dateng juga :P
Walaupun kalau dipikir - pikir liburan kali ini gw nggak bisa sepenuhnya santai, semua gara - gara satu kata yang terdiri dari 2 huruf. UN! Gw nggak bisa santai gara - gara satu kata itu ~_~

Anyway, sinonim dari kata libur dalam kamus gw itu 'Hibernasi' and..menurut rumus, libur + hibernasi= Gendut! Bayangin, belum liburan aje pipi gw dah tambah tembem, gimana kalau udah mulai liburan nanti? bzz~
*siap - siap buang timbangan ke laut*

Beside, I'm sure i will miss my friends during the holiday >,<
even I will miss my teachers.....nah, I lied! xD I won't miss my teacher, never :P
And, I have nothing to do during the holiday, and since it's christmas holiday, my brothers and sisters will come home with teir family and stay at home until new year << i think. I Have no plan for christmas and new year, I dun feel there's something special with that event.
Maybe I'll just watch 'The Vampire Diaries' during the holiday, why not SPN? Becaausee..I can't stop watching that show and i know I won't study if i start to watch that show :p

'nuff of this gejeh post xD

Shadows-Westlife

"Shadows"

"But I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how we were
Of how it was"

"For a Moment I wish It was YOU."

Morning after
Still lingers
Just waking up
I see a shadow of you
Making breakfast for two
I go driving
Past our place and
I see this girl walk by
I smell her perfume
For a moment I wish it was you

I'm not gonna tell ya
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin' to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes

But I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how we were
Of how it was
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you and memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows

Four months gone
I can't feel you
I don't understand it
Where did you go?
I hate that you're all that I know

I'm not gonna tell ya
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin' to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes

But I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how we were
Of how it was
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you and memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows

You couldn't love me
So why won't you leave me?
Shadows
Alone is the only place I want to be

I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how to love
I've had enough
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you, the memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough

I Miss "Us"

Pernah merindukan orang yang jelas - jelas berada di dekat kalian?itu yang gw alami sekarang. Gw kangen sama..banyak orang sebenernya, tapi biar gw sebutin salah satu orang yang pernah ngasih gw banyak kenangan indah, konyol, gejeh :P

Pertama kali gw ketemu orang ini, gw ngerasa takut..dia nyeremin sii (sorry,Dear..but it's true) Lalu, entah kebetulan atau apa..kayaknya ada aja hal yang 'maksa' gw buat deket sama orang ini. Dia nggak nyeremin kayak yang gw kira, gampaang banget buat 'suka' sama dia. Tahun pertama kita kenal emang kita nggak begitu deket, di tahun kedua kita kenal baru kita mulai deket. Gw suka banget ngedengerin orang ini cerita, bisa dibilang gw suka semua tentang dia. Dia selalu bisa bikin gw ketawa ato kadang kesel di mix ketawa :P

Dan di tahun ketiga ini kita mulai menjauh...dan gw kangen hari - hari waktu gw 'n dia bercanda n ketawa bareng. Gw mau ngedenger cerita - ceritanya lagi.

Dia emang ada di deket gw, gw bisa ketemu dia tiap hari malah. Tapi entah kenapa, gw ngerasa dia begitu jauh. Padahal kami hanya dipisahkan oleh jarak yang nggak seberapa. I miss you, dear..

Buat orang itu: Di tahun ketiga kita kenal ini, emang kita udah nggak bareng lagi. But, gw mau u tau..gw masih disini kapanpun u butuh gw. Gw nggak tau apa u juga ngerasa kangen sama gw, gw kehilangan u, U nggak tau waktu gw ketemua u tadi, gw rasanya pengen loncat n meluk u..Gw kangen u, gw kangen "Kita"


Buat yang lainnya, yang nggak gw sebutin:
I know you might don't realize this, but I miss "Us"
Turn your back and you’ll see it’s true :)

Mood: Mellow, Exhausted
Song: My Love-Westlife
Kepompong-sindentoska
Quote:

I tried to read
I go to work
I’m laughing with my friends
But I can’t stop
To keep myself from thinking

Oh no
I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang together

Taylor Swift-A Place in This World

I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in
This world

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do

[Chorus:]

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in
This world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
But that's ok

[Repeat Chorus]

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
But I'm ready to fly

[Repeat Chorus]

P!nk-F*cking Perfect

"You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead"

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated this place
Misunderstood
Miss knowing it's all good
It didnt slow me down.

Mistaking
Always second guessing
Underestimating
Look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
F-cking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f-cking perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how we all make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game

It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same

Oh

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
F-cking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f-cking perfect to me

The whole worlds scared
So I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking
Is an ice cold beer

So cool in line
And we try, try, try
But we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics
Cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans
They don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves
And we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeeeeaaaahhh
Oooooooh
Oh baby pretty please

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever feel
Like you're less than
F-cking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f-cking perfect to me

You're perfect, you're perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're f-cking perfect to me

I always listen to this song everytime i feel my life is meaningless :D

As Long as You Believe, It's Possible X)

Nyambung dari post yang "Gw butuh keajaiban" beberapa hari yang lalu. Inget kata - kata terakhir saia di post itu?

"Gw butuh miracle buat ngedapetin nilai 7 ato 8 besok. and yes.. i believe it will happen..at least i hope so..wish me luck x)"

Guess what? The miracle "HAPPENED' XD
Tadi hasil TPB matematika dibacain sama Papih tercinta...gw udah parno soalnya nilainya kok kayaknya pada acur ye?temen gw aja yang lebih pinter cuma dapet 6..eh~eh~ tiba - tiba pas nilai gw disebutin gw dapet 70!
Terus waktu gw ngitung rata - rata rapot..rata - rata gw 60 PAS! Untung aja..kalo sampe merah rata - rata di rapot, bisa disuruh berenti les nih =="

Walaupun gw akui nilai itu nggak sepenuhnya hasil itungan, banyak yg dapet bonus anulir 'n ada sumbangan dari hoki juga :p *coret*danmungkinkarenadafotosi"itu"jugasii*coret*
Tetep aja..itu nilai TERBAIK gw sepanjang sejarah matematika pelajaran kelas 9 XD

Once again, thank you yh Father :)

Xenophobe

Xenophobia, pernah denger kata di atas? gw yakin sebagian orang pasti ngerasa asing sama kata itu. Xenophobe ato Xenophobia itu nggak seterkenal "saudara - saudara"nya kayak 'Altophobia'(Phobia pada ketinggian) atau 'Nyctohylophobia'(Phobia pada kegelapan)

Xenophobia itu perasaan takut berlebihan karena bertemu orang asing, bisa terjadi karena trauma psikologis. Kalau terus berlanjut individu yang mengidap xenophobe akan merasa sangat tersiksa ketika berada di tempat ramai, mereka akan memilih menyendiri n menghindari tempat - tempat ramai. Penderita enggan berkomunikasi lebih dulu dengan orang lain. Kalau diabaikan dan tidak diatasi..xenophobe bisa mengarah ke isolasi sosial.

gw butuh keajaiban -______-"

Besok gw TPB mate and...tebak..gw NGGAK NGERTI gimana cara nyari jawaban dari soal latian yang tergeletak di kasur gw sekarang. Well, nggak separah itu sii...ada beberapa yang saia ngerti..cuma sungguh gw nggak siap buat TPB mate besok. meibi gw harus minjem otaknya Einstein dlu baru gw bisa ngerjain dengan aman,tentram,damai.

Gimana, mau masuk jurusan IPA kalo gini caranya?gimana mau masuk SMA "itu" kalo kayak gini caranya arrghhh *stressed*

Gw butuh miracle buat ngedapetin nilai 7 ato 8 besok. and yes.. i believe it will happen..at least i hope so..wish me luck x)

Another gejeh post from meh ~XD

My Alphabet!~
A: Awkward, because dude, it’s sooo my word :P
B: Bobby :3
C: Castiel, the cute blue eyed-angel X3
D: Dean, because he's one sexxi beast
E: Excellent, because I really can't think of anything else
F: Ferret. It Reminds me of Draco ~:P
G: Grammar driving me crazy @.@
H: Hachiko..’cause he’s an amazing dog :D
I: Incest, Dunno..just pop in my head
J: Jensen XP
K: Key?
L: L, Because he's just sooo damn cute!
M: Matt, the hot hacker !
N: Near, because he's so cute
O: Obliviate, cause sometimes i wih i can perform that spell to my self
P: Promiscuous, because that's just Dean Winchester
Q: Quiet? My secret trait ;)
R: Ryuk, because he's just so cool.
S: Sammy XD
T: Trench coat?hmmm~ *imaginingsomesuspiciousimages*
V: Virginity, because It’s important dude~
W: Watari, because he kicks major ass.
X: Xenophobe, ‘cause sometimes i think i have that..
Y: Yuuki, one of my personalities *evil laugh*
Z: Zebra, I don't even know

Just another random

Saia nyomot ini dari Profil salah satu author di FF.net, Lumayan seru...saia bener" enjoy waktu ngisinya, lumayan buat refreshing setelah memeras otak ngerjain TPB tadi XD


1. Aaaaalllrrriiigggghhhtt!! List your 5 favourite characters from the same fandom! We'll get some RP going on here! Don't peek on the questions first!
I Choooooseeee: *insert music* “Supernatural Fandom” XD

1. DEAN Winchester XD
2. Castiel
3. Sam Winchester
4. Gabriel
5.Bobby

2. You heard that going out was really dangerous but, you still have to go anyway! So, you decided to get outta your home when you suddenly hear gunshots. Somebody grabbed you by your hand and took you somewhere behind the bushes. It appears that he/she is your no 1. What will you do/say?
-“Dean?What the heck is happening?”*blush*

3. Yeah, whatever you do, he/she smiled and asked if you're alright.
- "I'm Fine, you can stop worrying now..Thanks..”

4. He/she takes you to his/her home where you meet no 2!
- "Cas?What are you doing here?and since when Dean bought a house?”

5. He/she stares at you with slight blush.
- "What?Do I have something my face?stop staring at me Cas, it’s creepy..”

6. He/she sits beside you and ask for your name.
- "Are you okay?I’m –mynameX3- are you drunk Cas?”

7. You guys talked for some time when your no 1 finally showed up. He/she looks rather jealous, what will you do?
- “Aww Dean, you know I won’t do anything with Cas,...*whisper*he’ssooo sweet when he’s jealous*whisper*

8. Let's move on. Your no 3 aka your bestie, asked you to help him/her with something.
- "Okay....what can i do for ya Sammy~?”

9. It appears that he/she likes no 2.
- “WHAT?! But...what about Gabriel?”

10. He/she needs your help! Fast!
- "Uh...You confuse me Sam...but okay, I’ll try..”

11. You're confused with what you have to do. no 4 asks if everything's alright.
- "”No, it’s not alright..listen Gabe, are you still with Sam?”

n style="font-weight:bold;">12. Whatever you answer up there, you still tell him/her the problem anyway. He/she suggests to think twice over your action.
- "Of ‘course i will think twice!!”

13. He/she smiles and just waves a goodbye, he/she has some errands to do. Here goes no 4. Here comes no 5.
- "Aww Gabe, dun be Sad >~<, And..Hi Bobby :D”

14. He/she asks if you can go and play with them, what do you say?
- "Play?Play?PLAY?!”*throw a bottle of holy water to him* "Get out from his body you demon!"

15. You ended up saying that you do not feel right after all. He/she guessed that you love someone while grinning playfully.
- *blush**speechless**blush*

16. So you tell him/her you're not sure about your feelings. He/she suggests you to confess straightaway.
- "Um...’kay”*blush*

17. The next day, you decide you will confess to no 1. So you invite him/her over to your home. What will you say when he arrives?
- "Hi Dean...I need to tell you something..please listen to me..”

18. Yeah so, you just spit the words but in the middle of your sentence, he/she stops you by kissing you. OMG! You can feel the blush on your face! What'll you do?!
- *blush* *kiss him back* ~XD

19. You broke for air and he/she said that he/she loves you since the first time you guys met.
- "Me too..” *smile*

20. YAY! Make up your own ending!
- I decide to help him stop the apocalypse, and when the crazy thing over we settle down, buy a house, have children and a apple-pie life ...*sfx*awwww~ X3